Trying to think what has happened since my last blog post. Oh yeah, Rex got/has colic. I’ll just leave that there for a second *sighs*.
I can’t remember who first suggested he might have colic. I’d heard of it but had no idea what it was. All I did know was that from the way people spoke about it, it was not a good thing and that you were a lucky bastard if your baby didn’t get it. So, of course, I turned to my trusty friend Google:
“What is colic?”
‘Colic is the name for excessive, frequent crying in a baby who appears to be otherwise healthy’.
No shit, Sherlock. What I want to know is what causes it and please, for the love of god, how I can stop it!?
The common answer is you can’t. Bloody marvellous. Although lots of people have tolf me he’ll ‘grow out of it’. Wonderful, that helps me no end at when he’s screaming so much he’s turning blue. So far we’ve tried Infacol drops, which appears to have eased it for him but shitting hell, how long does this last?? The only way I’ve found to really calm the little fella down is to plant my boob in his face. However, it makes doing anything very difficult when you have a small human hanging off your nipple 24/7. It’s awful seeing him so upset, I feel like I’ve aged about 100 years in the past few days because of it. Here’s hoping he ‘grows out of it’ pretty fucking sharpish.
The debate rages on
Yep, I’m still talking about breastfeeding (I know, I’m beginning to bore myself now keep harping on about it). While Rex and I are getting on well with the old boob saga now, a few people have made comments to me recently that I should just switch to bottles as it would ‘make my life a lot easier’.
I realise these comments are (for the most part) coming from a good place but I don’t understand why people have to pass comment/judgement in the first place? If I wanted to make my life easier, I would have shoved a bottle in his mouth on the first day and been done with it. I’m very aware that bottle feeding would have removed a lot of the stress I’ve felt and issues we’ve had over the past few weeks, but wanting to breastfeed Rex was my choice and I shouldn’t have to justify that to anyone.
I have to admit that these comments actually really upset me at the time, and for a couple of days I questioned whether I’d made the right decision about breastfeeding, whether Rex was getting enough milk and if, infact, my milk was good enough for him. I even went as far as to nearly make an appt with our GP to get him weighed it put so much doubt in my mind. I think I’m still very sensitive about the whole subject so took it to heart way more than I should’ve, but it still pissed me off. Eamo will be the first to tell you that I always over think things, sometimes to an unhealthy degree – it’s just the way I am. And when it comes to Rex I already doubt myself a lot of the time so comments like that are just really unhelpful.
People seem to have such strong feelings about breast and bottle feeding, which is fine. What I don’t understand is why people feel the need to enforce their feelings on others? I would never dream of telling someone how to care for or feed their child, but I have to remind myself that everyone is different and I shouldn’t expect people to behave in the way that I would, as hard as that might be.
I realise that I just need to take comments like this with a pinch of salt, that I am Rex’s mum and I should trust the decisions that I make. But as a somewhat vulnerable new mum that can be really quite hard sometimes. The way I look at it now is I’ve worked my fucking bollocks off to establish breastfeeding Rex and I’ll be damned if I’m going to give up now just because a small minority think bottle feeding might be better for him. God help anyone who says anything about it to me about it in the future cos now it’s no more Miss nice mum 😉
Dad’s the word
Look at the concentration 😉
I spoke to my friend Meg about breastfeeding when I was pregnant. She has two boys and breastfed both and I remember her saying that with her first she felt trapped as he wouldn’t take a bottle so she was very limited to what she could do for the first few months of his life. With her second, she slowly introduced a bottle after four weeks and then gradually increased the amount of bottles he had over time and I am absolutely hoping to copy this approach. Thanks Meg! ❤
I realise this seems a bit of a contradiction after my rant above, but, as much as I love breastfeeding Rex, I don’t want to ever get to point where he won’t take a bottle and I am never able to be away from him for more than a couple of hours.
So, Eamo and I decided that from last Sunday night, I would express some milk and he would give Rex his last feed before bed, which he did, and it was the loveliest thing ever. Rex took the bottle like a dream and it broke me watching the pair of them have that time. I was a little stuck as to how much to give him, so started with 2oz, which he absolutely sculled and then fell fast asleep immediately. HURRAH!
We’ve continued to do this every night now but have upped the amount of milk to 3.5-4oz after speaking to a friend and on his best night, Rex slept for 4.5 hours in between feeds. FOUR AND A HALF HOURS! I felt like a new woman when he woke me at 2am for his next feed.
Fingers crossed we can continue with this little routine. Not only is it lovely for Eamo to be able to feed him, it also means I can get out for a fucking beer in the not-so-distant future. Yep, I totally have my priorities in check 😉